| Location | Treherbert |
| Age | 18 years |
| Date of Birth | 1990 |
| Date of Death | 3/2008 |
| Visitors | 37,000 since 30/03/2008 |
| Creator |
R.I.P RHI AND JADE U WILL BE MISSED SO MUCH BY EVERYONE
THE TWO OF U NEVER HAD A SAD FACE YOU WERE ALWAYS SMILING ND YOULL SADLY BE MISSED BY EVERYONE
HOPE YOU LOOK AFTER EACHOTHER UP THERE ILL MISS U BOTH
LOVE BOOG
Christmas time angels x
Hello angels x
Christmas time is just around the corner, miss you so so much, it will never ever be the same not without your joy and excitement around the place.
Jez had his Christmas concert tonight Gorg, he had one of the main parts, sang on his own and with Keelan, you would be so so proud of him, just wish you could of been here to watch him with us all. Your lil looka is growing up so fast. But, he was wearing your clothes so part of you part with him x
Went to see Hannah Barrett yesterday with your Mam Rhi, finally handed over the money for 'Walk with the angels 2011', know you'd want to help better things, make life a little easier and help others.
Nanno's birthday this week Gorg, she'll be 87 and she's doing well. Both been up your garden today, me holding Nanno so she doesn't fall as she insists getting out of the car and climbing the banking to put flowers for you. On the way back down legs up in the air, flat on my arse in the mud and I'm supposed to be the one looking after Nanno. You always said you'd look after her and I know you meant every word, I'm doing my best to carry out your wish Gorg x
Rosy is due next week, are you going to make this a Christmas baby? Olly on your birthday, is this one going to be Christmas Day? Don't know what she is having yet, but I bet you and Rhi know already and are preparing for it's arrival.
I hope you are both safe and having a magical time preparing for Christmas x
Love you Millions x Miss you so much x
More than anyone could ever know or words could ever explain x
*x* Mammy *x*
Jade and Rhi x
Hello Girls x Love and Miss you so much x
Christmas is fast approaching, the fourth year without you, it's a joyfull time of year, but so difficult without you. I know you both loved this time of year so much, counting down, getting wound up and winding others up.
Try my best, try and be positive but it will never ever be the same! Got most of Christmas pressies done early started wrapping too, can't be dealing with it all nearer to Christmas, can't cope with the stress of it all, can't handle the shops full of people.
Am handling the thought of Christmas a bit better, the thought of trimming up isn't as bad, as every day without you is so hard, not just the special times.
Life moves on and I hope you share it with us, the laughs, joys, ups and downs, I hope you are around, are safe somewhere watching and waiting. Been struggling with where you are a lot more lately, I don't know if I'm able to accept/think about the reality a bit more, it's so hard to explain. Yes, there are dark horrible days when I think of the reality, I hate these days, have no control over them, but when the thick gloom passes I am able to look at your photos, think of you as being somewhere, still as you, safe and happy. Lately, when I think about you, it chokes me, makes me think of your accident, how it happened, how life could be this way. Think of you as gone, but yet how can you be, cos I can feel your love, the pain inside me, how can it be nothing? You were real, you were part of me, you were so young, beautiful and innocent so how can life be this way now?
I so don't understand it, so many questions, that maybe I will never get the answer too. Will I see you again one day, I live in hope of this day x
I love you and miss you so much and so so wish you could come home!
Life is so cruel. I just want you back, just wish you were here with Leoni and Jez.
Love you always & forever x
*x* Mammy *x*
It's been a while
Hello my angels it's been a while x
But, you know you are always in my thoughts, hopefully forever by my side x
Life goes on as people say, but it will never ever be the same since you were taken away. Time moves forward but somehow forever trapped in the time zone of the time when we lost you. You're 21 now, but in my mind's eye will always be 17, there are days I wonder what you'd look like now, I guess just more grown up and just as beautiful as ever.
I live each day as it comes along, deal with the day and get on with it best I can. People say how strong and brave I must be, but I don't think that's the case, you just learn to survive and cope with the moment. If I'm honest I don't face the reality of the situation daily, I'd never cope. Each day I get bye with the sense that you're safe, where I don't quite know, but you're somewhere and safe. There are moments when I get a reality check and have to think of the reality of this situation.... I don't like them cos I can't cope with that thought. Somehow I know you are somewhere and you're safe, cos you can't be just gone, just around the corner now until we meet again.
Leoni and Jez are growning up. Leoni did so well in her Gcse's, you both must get your brains from me, hope Jez follows his Big sisters!
Olly, a new baby on the way too. Lydia is 5 on Monday, Paige Louisa is stunning just like her Bopey Jade Louisa :) All these new additions to your gang of girlies, I'm sure the list will go on and on.
Daisy passed her test this week, so proud of her, make me so emotional cos you were always like the Big sis, the thought of Daisy being out and about on the roads, what can happen, also the thought that you never achieved this, it's so hard, but I know you'd be so proud of Daisy.
Auntie Sha G's 40th Birthday party tonight, won't be long til I join the 40's club. I'm getting a bit better at times like this, but am most comfortable at home in my comfort zone.
We'll keep fighting this together Gorg x keep strong x
I love you and miss you so so much x
Now and forever x
*x* Mammy *x*
Congratulations on your 21st Birthday Jade x
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday dear Jade
Happy Birthday to you!
Whoop Whoop 21 Today!
Hope you are having an amazing time, couldn't imagine you not having a fuss. You always loved special occasions, so I hope all your family and angel friends up there have spoilt you rotten!
21 Years ago today, you give me my vocation in life...
becoming a Mother.
Didn't realise life would turn out this way, so hard not being able to do anything to change it, but I hope I'm doing you proud... I will fight this til the end. Everyday, living without you is torture, but the thought that each day is a day closer to seeing you again... seeing that beautiful smile... hear your voice... 'Love you Mam, can I have a cwtch?' Being able to touch you, hold you, have a kiss off my girl... it will all be worth it. Maybe then I'll understand why this had to happen.
People say it makes you stronger, I don't know about that... harder maybe, but I think you're so numb, you just deal with it best you can, there is no other way.
Bet you've been a busy girl, being around us all today... Mr. Bear's party, Take That at Wembley tonight... now ready to party the night away I hope!
You'll always be my Precious, hope you like the ink I had done today, just something for Me and You on your Special day!
I could talk to you forever and a day, but no words will ever be enough to describe, my loss, heartbreak at losing you and how much I love and Miss you x
Party the Night away x Gorg... go shake those boobies! lol x
Love you Millions x
Always and Forever x
(ps. How old are you now...)
*x* Mammy *x*
Happy birthday!
Happy 21st birthday jadey! Not a day that goes by when I don't think bout u n Rhi! Only seems like yesterday it was ur 18th the years r flying by! The pain doesn't go away u just learn to live with it! I hope the both of u r gna party in style tnite! I'm sure u will make annapoerance at mr olly bears birthday 1st tho! Ur a 2 special angels in the sky together I am
Blessed to have got to spend time with u both! Please keep looking over us all n keeping us strong! Love n miss u so so much n pls help me get this lil madam in my stomach out soon aswell haha! Love n miss you loads happy 21st again babe love sammy, Lydia and bump xxxxxx
Jade x
Hi Gorg x
Where did the time go eh? You'll be 21 next week, just can't believe it. Another birthday without you, another special birthday! Bet you're giving Rhi and all your angel family and friends a headache with all your excitement... can just imagine you whoop whooping about the place making plans, making sure you get mega spoilt.
Just wish we could all spend it together Gorg, just wish I could change things, but I'm so sorry I can't do anything x
You'll always be17 going on 18 in my minds eye, I guess forever young and beautiful... wonder what you'd look like now? Never to know, breaks my heart!
I know I'll get thro' the day ok, cos I always get the strength and help of friends, family and you my Precious big girl x
Got a tattoo booked, Leoni is off to Wembley with Auntie Claire to see Take that, no doubt you'll pay a visit to us all that day. Olly's first birthday, our special lil Bear, which I'm sure you had something to do with his arrival. Will make sure our tears will be laughter too.
I know you'll be pleased I've moved on a little, with coping with day to day life, it's not easy, sometimes I'm scared I'll forget you, things etc... but I know deep down I never will, but it bothers me. Scared that life without you becomes normal, but you know I love you, will never forget you, or give up on seeing you again one day. You'll always be my Special girl x
Sitting here typing this now breaks my heart, because where you are is a reality at this moment, I can't face that every day, cos I'd never get thro' the days. You're just out there somewhere and I will see you again x
Look after Jez and Leoni x I know you're so so proud of them, forever the doting, caring Big Sis x
I Miss you Gorg x
Be good x Wait for me... one day x
Love you Millions and Millions x Always have x Always will x
Night x Night x
Sleep tight!
*x* Mammy *x*
Hello Gorg x
Hi Gorg x
How's things, I haven't been on here for a while, guess you already know all I'm going to tell you and how much I love and miss you!
Leoni finishes school tomorrow, ready for her Gcse's, she's been doing quite a bit of revision so I hope she does really well... bit scary cos it seems like only the other day I was sat out the back with you while you were revising. Sixth form then in Sept, change of uniform, which will be strange cos you never got the chance to leave sixth form. In my minds eye, even tho' you'll be 21 soon, you'll always be 17 young and beautiful.
Leoni was 16 last Friday, Daddy 40 on Sunday, I hope I done you proud, know didn't quite make such a fuss as you, cos you loved giving and making a fuss, loved spoiling people and seeing them happy, but I think I done pretty well considering... Was a bit hard work with Daddy cos he didn't want any fuss without you, but I did my best and I think they both had a fab time. I'm absolutely washed out now tho', think having to be so strong, it takes it out of you now and then.
Sammy is getting really big now, hope you've been looking after her and the baby, she'll be 30 weeks on Sat. Had us a bit worried for a while she wasn't going to make it this far, but I bet her guardian angels are watching over her, making everything ok. Kim is now engaged, Derwyn propesed on hols, Bri is back single, her Rosy and Kirsty are off to Benidorm for Bri's 21st next week... we're helping look after Olly Bear, he's so handsome, just know you had something to do with his arrival, cos Rosy so deserves to be happy and she is a wonderful Mam!
Life is pretty much the same, hate having to live without you here in person, wish I could feel you with me more often than I do, but I guess you're busy doing good things.... letting go is the hardest thing ever, I'm trying my best, learning to live a little again, learning it's ok to have a life, live a life without you isn't easy! There was something on the tv the other night about being a mother, Jez turned to me and said, 'Mam you're a mother first and a wife second aren't you?' 'Yes boy I said, always be a Mam first, mother second, I come third!' Cos being a Mam to me is the most important thing in the world and living without you, is so so hard! Learning to live again, not just exist is so hard without you Gorg, I've done practically everything I've had to do, to put things in place for you, you know I'll never give up on you, never give up on seeing you again!!!
I love you all my heart x body x soul x
Be good, take care x x x
Love you millions x x x
*x* Mammy *x*
Love you x
Morning,
My angels x Love and miss you so much!
The sun is shining, hope you're having fun wherever you are.
Sending you lots of love x hugs x cwtches x angel x kisses x
*x* Mammy *x*
Jade and Rhiannon x
Jade and Rhiannon x
You are loved and missed so much!
Somedays it feels like life has always been this way, having to live without you, others it feels like yesterday you walked through the door.
Deep down inside is the reality, but I can't cope with that, still think you'll come home if I'm honest. Wonder what you're doing, what you look like now, but I guess just a stunning and beautiful as ever!
Hope you're safe and waiting for us all, so you can guide us the way forward...
Love you so much x x x
Heart body and soul x x x
Sleep tight x x x
Night Girlies x x x
Love x
*x* Mammy *x*
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